I'm Letting Go

Two years ago, Matt walked away from me ... and I began to feel like my life was spinning out of control. At first, I did a lot of grasping for anything I could hang onto. I wanted to stop the free fall. I was scared of letting go of all that I knew, and trusting that God was going to catch me.

But as the days, weeks, months and years have slowly passed by, I've learned a lot about faith and trust in God. And now, I actually feel safe being out of control of my own life. I have found that the free fall is actually an okay place to be because I can trust that God is going to catch me and gently place me down in the perfect spot. Things will be better when I land ... I can trust that even though the fall is a little scary, I've actually got nothing to fear.

Recently, I discovered I was going to have to move out of my house as it had been sold. I started immediately to look for a new home. Despite my best efforts, no house was available to me. I couldn't seem to find anything. Again and again and again my search came up empty. As I prayed, God began to make it clear that I needed to search in another town. And, He has confirmed that for me time and time and time again.

So, today I find myself purchasing a home (for the first time ever) in a new town ... free falling again, knowing that God is working out all the details. Free falling .. not knowing why God is moving me or how things are really going to work out. But I'm excited about the future and I'm feeling incredibly safe in this season of letting go and letting God. I can honestly say that moving is not my idea, but I trust that God is doing something really amazing in this situation.

I heard this song by Francesca Battistelli tonight and it just seemed to describe my place in life so perfectly. I found the You Tube video, but I can't seem to embed it here. Oh, well, here's the link to go to You Tube and view it for yourself ... or you can just read the lyrics below.



I'm Letting Go by Francesca Battistelli
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iNEhKLrsUfo


My heart beats, standing on the edge
But my feet have finally left the ledge

Like an acrobat
There’s no turning back

Chorus
I’m letting go
Of the life I planned for me
And my dreams
Losing control
Of my destiny
Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
So I’m letting go

This is a giant leap of faith
Trusting and trying to embrace

The fear of the unknown
Beyond my comfort zone

Chorus
I’m letting go
Of the life I planned for me
And my dreams
Losing control
Of my destiny
Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
So I’m letting go

Giving in to your gravity
Knowing You are holding me
I’m not afraid

Feels like I’m falling and that’s what it’s like to believe
Feels like I’m falling and this is the life for me